The End Is Nigh

Next Friday I will be a free woman-my last A Level exam will be over and hopefully university will beckon me this September.

I don’t have many plans for this summer apart from going out a few times with friends. I like the fact that I’ll be letting the chips fall way they may. It’s a nice feeling not having weeks in advance booked with X,Y and Z. I’m sure the boredom will make me want to pull my hair out within a week or two though.

I guess my summer will consist of me trying to get a part time job, reading books,watching TV series and films. As well as going out and having a fun time with friends and family.

It’s worrying that I’ll only have a handful of free summers left-soon enough I’ll be entering the rat race that is work. Clocking in at 9 and clocking out at 5 followed by the mad rush to get home. For what? To pay the bills? Buy some fancy clothes? To able to go on an exotic holiday? For me it’s scary thinking about the future because there will be good and bad times coming up-that’s guaranteed.

But for now I’ll be focusing on the task at hand-watching all the TV series I have lined up for this summer!

The best-laid schemes o’ mice an’ men gang aft agley

When I was in secondary school I was certain I was destined for great things (academically that is). I felt that I had the Midas touch in all my subjects and that Alevels were only a small stepping stone for my goal to study at a top university. I enjoyed all my subjects and I was doing well, I had an impression this would carry on at Alevel and that I would still have fun in my subjects and I would also get great grades.

I had very high aspirations academic-wise, I was incredibly naive it seems…

Unfortunately things haven’t planned out in the way I once imagined. It seems an impending gap year may be needed. Having just spoken to my sister I am very fortunate to have understanding family members who can make me feel that it’s not the end of the world when things don’t go right-unconditional love is the greatest.

I now feel even if I do have any setbacks I can just pick myself up and have another ago, after-all it is character building and who knows-the future may have something great for me in stock…

I still am an eternal optimist even if the best laid plans go awry.